Merciful and Forgiving Lord, I have a secret that I am too ashamed to talk about. Everyone thinks I am a Christian, but am I? My head believes in You, and I want my heart to follow, but it is just so hard for my overthinking brain to get there. There is evidence for You. There is more evidence for You than against You. So why my unbelief? Come into my heart and fill me with You. I need more of You to help my unbelief. With more of You in me, I will be able to wipe away my doubt in Your existence. Chase me down, Lord, and bring me close to You. I believe. Help my unbelief. Amen.